Today I am 20 years completely sober.
In sobriety, you must be selfish as fuck because if you’re not selfish as fuck, you’re gonna go out and do drugs again.
There will always be people that will test out the waters for you so you don’t have to.
Early in my sobriety, I created the purpose of being the designated driver for all of my drunk friends and it paid off because they respected me like you wouldn’t believe after we all go into a bar and I’m tricking cokes while they’re getting shitfaced they couldn’t believe it, but they understood it.
I cared for them as an alcoholic and knowing what people get into and I wanted to be their savior and I was for that night.
One thing an alcoholic must do to really understand themselves is to read and understand the alcoholics anonymous book I had to go through rehab in order to read and understand the book going to classes three hour a day for 7 months.
For the first couple of weeks, I wasn’t paying attention and then the house manager said if you don’t understand this now you’re gonna die early and somehow that ring a bell with me and that got me to pay attention in class how do I not done that I would’ve been dead a long time ago, so I really respect the house manager for giving me the tools to stay sober as long as I have.
So my thing is is I don’t care what you do you drink you do drugs you do whatever you wanna do but leave me out of it. I mean, I’ll be the designated driver going home or if you need a ride somewhere no big deal but really you know I can’t partake in any of that.
The reason I say that is because I am an addict. I am a real addict and if I ever do partake that I know that with it about a week or so I will be dead 100%.
I’ve told my life story so far up to about 500 times and every time I talk about my life, people are at the edge of their sheets, wanting to know more because I give them the greatest gift of all graphic details and it’s just amazing and how people love good stories and apparently I have a really good story now it does take me about four hours to tell my story, but people start asking questions there was a guy that had problems on his own as far as alcoholism, and he wanted me to help him. Try to for ways to get off of it because he would steal alcohol from 7-Eleven all the time.
He knew he was an addict, but he didn’t know how to stop
Much like me when I found myself walking to go rob a bank something clicked inside me and said hey you can’t do this not today.
So I called a friend of mine that was in the program and I told him I was going to go rob a bank because I didn’t have any money for gas because I had smoked up all the drugs smoked up all the money and ran out of gas my car was sitting at a gas station waiting to be filled up.
So I go to a meeting he picks me up at. I had to ask for money and I didn’t want to everybody was telling me not to do it but I said fuck it. I gotta do it and so for the next 40 days I was at the Alano club in Pacific Beach and I waited there until I got the call to go into rehab and thank God I did that I did work at Labor Ready just so I could be self-sufficient with all the meetings made a lot of different people really they were crazy lunatic just like me.
It was really weird because I don’t like talking to people like me. It sounds crazy, but I never really liked hanging out with other addicts because all they talk about all day is their fucking disease and how they figured it out on the on their own and I said fuck that dude like I really don’t give a shit whatever, but it was in rehab where I learned to understand that to listen and learn from other people’s mistakes
So I took it upon myself to learn from my own mistakes and to learn my own actions in the situation and how I can approve my own actions to make it a better outcome.
In sobriety, you must be selfish as fuck because if you’re not selfish as fuck, you’re gonna go out and do drugs again.
There will always be people that will test out the waters for you so you don’t have to.
Early in my sobriety, I created the purpose of being the designated driver for all of my drunk friends and it paid off because they respected me like you wouldn’t believe after we all go into a bar and I’m tricking cokes while they’re getting shitfaced they couldn’t believe it, but they understood it.
I cared for them as an alcoholic and knowing what people get into and I wanted to be their savior and I was for that night.
One thing an alcoholic must do to really understand themselves is to read and understand the alcoholics anonymous book I had to go through rehab in order to read and understand the book going to classes three hour a day for 7 months.
For the first couple of weeks, I wasn’t paying attention and then the house manager said if you don’t understand this now you’re gonna die early and somehow that ring a bell with me and that got me to pay attention in class how do I not done that I would’ve been dead a long time ago, so I really respect the house manager for giving me the tools to stay sober as long as I have.
So my thing is is I don’t care what you do you drink you do drugs you do whatever you wanna do but leave me out of it. I mean, I’ll be the designated driver going home or if you need a ride somewhere no big deal but really you know I can’t partake in any of that.
The reason I say that is because I am an addict. I am a real addict and if I ever do partake that I know that with it about a week or so I will be dead 100%.
I’ve told my life story so far up to about 500 times and every time I talk about my life, people are at the edge of their sheets, wanting to know more because I give them the greatest gift of all graphic details and it’s just amazing and how people love good stories and apparently I have a really good story now it does take me about four hours to tell my story, but people start asking questions there was a guy that had problems on his own as far as alcoholism, and he wanted me to help him. Try to for ways to get off of it because he would steal alcohol from 7-Eleven all the time.
He knew he was an addict, but he didn’t know how to stop
Much like me when I found myself walking to go rob a bank something clicked inside me and said hey you can’t do this not today.
So I called a friend of mine that was in the program and I told him I was going to go rob a bank because I didn’t have any money for gas because I had smoked up all the drugs smoked up all the money and ran out of gas my car was sitting at a gas station waiting to be filled up.
So I go to a meeting he picks me up at. I had to ask for money and I didn’t want to everybody was telling me not to do it but I said fuck it. I gotta do it and so for the next 40 days I was at the Alano club in Pacific Beach and I waited there until I got the call to go into rehab and thank God I did that I did work at Labor Ready just so I could be self-sufficient with all the meetings made a lot of different people really they were crazy lunatic just like me.
It was really weird because I don’t like talking to people like me. It sounds crazy, but I never really liked hanging out with other addicts because all they talk about all day is their fucking disease and how they figured it out on the on their own and I said fuck that dude like I really don’t give a shit whatever, but it was in rehab where I learned to understand that to listen and learn from other people’s mistakes
So I took it upon myself to learn from my own mistakes and to learn my own actions in the situation and how I can approve my own actions to make it a better outcome.
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